
.June 23, 2005 ' 12:53 Y
gosh. just tell me how long i've havent been updating my blog?? oh wells.. anyway. LOADS and LOADS and LOADS and LOADS of things happend. good, bad, my first, my last. heartbreaking, just loving, had funn, great funn, been in love, never once in my life until this stage, lost, confused, sadd but strong. i dun give a shit anymore..
ok.. stuff happened. i was in love but never once in my life i took a step further. ok no. i dun want to talk bout this. drop the subject. lets just jump to kuantan. KUANTAN TRIP SO ROCKD MY TIME. although i was feeling all shity. i was having funn!! couldnt deny it. i was having lots of funn. stars, boat, fireflies, monyet, clouds, plucking weeds, beach, high rocks, soap, water, sun, sand, sea, shopping, room service, phone calls, bathtub, mutthu, abraham, prata shop, alot of stuff!!!! gosh. i so want to go back there. and we're back to reality.
had trainings.. conflicts and now it will all be ok and back to normal. we'll just take it as if nothing happened. just so people would know. whatever thats said to me. i can accept it. i can accept the facts about me and everybody. yes i'll cry. yes i'll be sad. but hey guess what man? i'm a strong gurl so ditch those things that i hear.
it'll just be a dream. this is what i'm afraid of and i really shouldnt have told you. i shouldnt have.. so that it wont be so difficult to let go. ah damn it.. forget those stuff. and it'll be ok. i'll be ok. just fine.
woah. dats just long enough to get things off my shoulders. haha. i'm so losing it. my life just sucks and rocks at the same time..